I needed some time to think

So, I did some drinking ‘cuz my world was shrinking

A change of scenery did the trick

All my motives have become so cheap

And it was so hard to cut myself some slack

Knowing that the world keeps spinning

Letting me know that I’m missing a great deal

It’s a cheap trick that makes me sick

My heart is cracking, yeah, I may be weak

Constant feeling as if waking up from a hazardous sleep 

Now the girl reminds me of candy

Like the blue sky high up on the mountains

Or the desert sun and flowers

Oh, dear God you’ve got some nerve

Messin’ ‘round my precious ideals

For a girl who’s got no dreams 

But has concrete plans ‘bout when to be where

It’s a cheap trick that makes me sick

My heart is cracking, yeah, I may be weak

Constant feeling as if waking up from a hazardous sleep 

Now the girl reminds me of candy

It’s as if I’m in a car crash

Hit my head on front window

Caught up in a loop 

Broken glass like spiderwebs

Finally, I’m realizing it all

It’s a cheap trick that makes me sick

My heart is cracking, yeah, I may be weak

Constant feeling as if waking up from a hazardous sleep 

Now the girl reminds me of candy

Constant feeling as if waking up from a hazardous sleep 

Now the girl reminds me of candy

Cheap Trick is the song that started it all. It was written 3 years ago, in a time full of misfortunes and uncertainties. Dark and foreboding, it has brought me back to my first car accident. There was a huge tranquility within chaos, and I had some sort of an epiphany: images of every event that left a mark on me in some way, were swirling in a stream of consciousness in my mind.

This song evokes anger and revolt against the Almighty, who makes us feel that we can’t run away from events that are beyond our control, that we are to be caught in fate’s webs in some way or another. It also speaks of the beginning of the end, of a life known to me up until the very day I’ve written it. That’s why I feel like “Constant feeling as if waking up from a hazardous sleep, now the girl reminds me of candy”. I’m the candy. 

Cheap Trick is a song that takes place in its bridge section, the breakdown: the tranquility within chaos. The car accident as the past, the moment of at which the song is written as now, and today as the future compared to the rest, all happening concurrently.